is such a hassle now D: but then again my life isn't anything new. Ugh |: HERRO.

KIM HEECHUL.
WHAT A HOTTIE.
I MEAN WOAH. NO OFFENSE KIM JAEJOONG BUT YOU JUST DON'T CUT IT.
HIS FACE IS WAY BETTER THAN MINE.
AND I MEAN HE'S IN THE BEST GROUP EVER: SUPER JUNIOR. HE SHOULD JUST BE THE LEADER.

AND YOU KNOW I HATE THIS GIRL NAMED NENE WITH NO BOOBS AND WHO IS VERY TALL.

I love my yene

O AND MEME STOLEN FROM VANESSA :D

Create an image of 9 things you currently really like, explain the things, and tag others so they can share some inspiration and positive vibes too.

TAGGING:

01 Kim Jaejoong! OWHUT IDOL. He's so amazing. And will always be my favorite of anything. Even though he's not a thing :< most amazing guy evar.
02 BoA! O.. SECOND FAVORITE PERSON. She's the person who got me into what I want to do. Which is pretty amazing. Hard worker. Talent. Woah jeongmal!
03 Music! Oh idk where to start. Music is. That amazing I know it doesn't even have description woah! Music's my oxygen. And sometimes, (you're right) i'd rather sing than breathe. It takes me away from the world that is so harsh in reality D:
04 BOOKS! I've always been a book nerd. I love to read. And escape to far off places. DARING SWORD FIGHTS. A PRINCE IN DISGUISE LOLOL BELLE.
05 Friends! i love people! Because they are most amazing. Only if they're my friends, though. You guys are always there to pick me up when I'm down. Or help me to find the truth when i'm confused about life. Mucho amor :D
06 Prom! FOR EVERY VARIOUS REASON YOU CAN THINK OF.
07 SPRING BREAK! Because now I can rest and relax. Unless yene rapes shinkinara team with graphics again. Please no more wallpapers yene I can't handle it T__T
08 Computer! You mean computer time doesn't make you happy????? D:
09 ROFL! Various reasons. o halo thar inside joke :D

My livejournal is pretty much a musing on my thoughts :[ Not really a blog. My life's not really blog-worthy, anyways.

We've been studying Emerson's essay Self-Reliance in my AP Lang class. It confuses me. Along with the words of my teacher, these things confuse me.

Not knowing what to follow confuses me more, though. For most of my life, I've followed a faith. The Christian faith. Where God is God and you have no say. But lately, I've been having these thoughts. That the God I've been following for so much isn't for me. That no one is for me. I pray. A lot. Every night, even. But everything seems so different. For all my life I've prayed for things to be good. For my dad to be ok. For my mom to get money so we can live like the others. For me to be accepted.

And I usually care less if i'm accepted anymore, but at the time, it was all I ever wanted. I asked my best friend once a couple of years ago about being a singer and becoming one of the drones of society who don't believe in God or something.

I was afraid that I'd lose my faith and I'd become one of them and she told me that it'd be my choice on whether not I want to.

Did I let my fate slip away? The things that I lived with so long. Those principles. Everything seems to have erased as my age is progressing. I just want to be a good person. For me. I don't want the constraint of having to please someone for all eternity because I can't. I'm so far from that skill of perfection.

I signed papers for the first time without needing a parent's signature today. How exciting!

I also will not be bitter about the boys going to hb and me not being able to go ;___; Aigooooo. My spirit. My heart.
IT BREAKS . DRAMATIC FALL.


But yeah. I cried alot when I figured out ;__; but that's okay :D I'll see them later this year!

I hate playing pokemon and losing. On the last loser of the elite four. NOT ONLY IS IT EMBARRASSING BECAUSE I HAVE A POKEMON NOOB TEAM BUT THEN MY STRONGEST POKEMON ALWAYS DIES.

AND MY LEGENDARIES HAVE TO TAKE OVER. LAMEEE.

:< Pokemon nerd

"Junsu: They got me a shirt for my birthday that said, "Sorry Girls, I'm Gay"
Host: So are you gay?
Junsu: No! of course not! How could I punish the world like that. The world needs me to be heterosexual."

OKAY JUNSU. OKAY. EVEN THOUGH I'M YOUR #2, I CAN'T STOP MAKING FUN OF YOU BECAUSE OF THIS :[ ROFL I'M SORRY YENE. JUNSU'S BUTT IS STILL KARISEUMATIK THOUGH

On the flipside their music japan performance for purple line was their best so far. 

You know how some people say they forget that have a livejournal in existence?! Well I didn't. Because I visit it everyday. But I'm just normally a boring person. :[ :[ :[

So hi hello lj friends! Or lack thereof. It's okay the ones who are left still love me T^T;;

Senior year's going good! I feel great and my stress isn't really running high, thankfully. Though the stress at home on the other hand is well.. on another hand! Being forced into college is kind of lame :[ Because I'd rather sing then maybe go to college. Is that stupidity kicking in? I have a good head on my shoulders, but I don't see the myself going to college for anything except for music. but most likely, i'll be forced into it. Because of dead people benefits. Thanks dad. And my mom is glaring at me for saying no =/.

I'm casted as the dancing chorus for the Beauty and the Beast musical which is kind of lame. But I don't mind. I do mind that I was going to be placed into a trio of the best chorus girls at my school IF NOT FOR THE STUPID PRACTICES FOR THE STUPID MUSICAL. I'm touched. Excited. Happy. But sad that i'm unable to join in. :[

I also figured out that I can hit extremely high keys now. And keep them steady too. Normally, i'm a second soprano/alto but eh. :D Exciting I know >__>;;

I think that's it for now. I might start posting often. >__o; if I remember!!